This is the day that the Lord has made.

Today, is the day.
It's my first ever time participating in a church production as an actor.
I'm suppose to feel... nervous.
Maybe not now. But later.

My heart still feels numb on and off.
But I know I can't just break down again.
Because this will dissapoint just so many people and most
importantly God.
I have to pull through and paste a smile on my face.
I can't be so selfish.

Sometimes
scars need time to heal,
but this time,
I don't have the time.
So I'll stitch it up, stitch it up real tight.

2.30 p.m I'll be at church.
I need to be 'high' and bring out the mood.
I need to be high.
I'll try to be high.